After a couple of weeks of trying, I’m finally in the holiday spirit. Christmas won’t be the same as it has in the past. I’ll have to make the best of it. I have 5 wishes for Christmas.
When I ask myself, what do I wish for Christmas? The answer comes easily.
1. Happiness
Over the past few years, I’ve had small bouts of depression. My favorite rocker, Rick Springfield, calls it Mr. D. I prefer to call it Ms. D for an obvious reason.
This time the depression is coming and going and has been for over a year. I feel like I’m in a hole ten feet deep and can’t get out.
Have you ever felt like that?
My first wish is for happiness this Christmas because I want to feel more of that than the way I feel now.
People say that you create your own happiness. And I agree.
However, when you are constantly slammed from every direction or take one step forward and five steps backwards, you get to the point when you give up even trying.
You throw your hands up and say, “Screw it.”
You want to scream at the top of your lungs, “How much more do I have to take?”
No matter how hard I try to be positive, something bad happens.
For once, I want something good to happen. I want to jump up and down and scream, “Yes! Yes! Yes!”
2. Motivation
Along the depression, my motivation goes out the window. That makes sense when I think about how Ms. D robs you of your energy.
Of course, working over forty-five hours a week at two part-time jobs isn’t helping. I am grateful, though, for the chance to work at the one temporarily. I’m hoping it will get me ahead.
My two businesses are suffering the brunt of my lack of motivation. Throw in illness and a couple of other stressors, and what little motivation might have been left is gone.
Out the door and across town, gone.
Except for one thing.
I’m tired of living this way. I’m tired of being broke. I’m tired of not doing what I want to be doing in life — writing full-time.
That is what is motivating me right now. I wish for motivation to keep me going. I’ll take whatever works to get me moving toward my goals in life.
3. Determination
Not only am I started to feel motivated, but I am determined.
I am determined to be successful with my writing.
After all, I’ve wanted to be a writer since high school, maybe even before that.
I saw an inspirational meme on Facebook this past week that said, “Stop wishing, start doing.”
The minute I saw it something inside of me clicked, like someone kicked me in the pants and said, “Michele, kick it into gear!”
I’m redoing my website here to its original intent and am building a plan to market once it’s finished. I will also get back into selling Thirty-One after I slacked off a month ago.
4. Forgiveness
I have found forgiving people for whatever they’ve done to you lifts a burden off of your shoulders.
People tell me I’m too nice. They are probably right. I always try to give people too many chances or try to see the good in them.
Sometimes this backfires. I get stepped on or treated disrespectfully.
By forgiving someone for what they’ve done to me, I can keep the anger away and the bitterness from eating me alive.
I can move on and be at peace.
5. Peace
This world is so full of hate and negativity. I wish for peace not only for myself but for those around me and all over the world, for people to get the mental help they need, and for people not to kill others.
I want people to feel the love. I want people to compliment each other and be positive with each other.
I wish people would treat each other with respect. What happened to respecting our elders? What happened to treating your parents with respect for teaching you right from wrong?
Children shouldn’t have to side with one parent and be estranged from the other.
Being negative with each other doesn’t solve anything. It only creates unhappy people, much like the world we have come to know.
I wish people would stop fighting. Not only are people dying in the countries abroad with shootings and bombings, but right here on American soil, right here in our own backyard.
Who wants to live in a world where people are shooting each other? Who wants to live in a world where children are estranged from a parent that brought them into this world because they feel entitled?
Is it really that hard to be respectful to each other? Is it really hard to be positive with each other?
If we could all be respectful and positive, peace will follow.
I realize some of my wishes may not happen. But it’s worth a try. Right?